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Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Reflection

When I look in the mirror, I see me and when I see me... I see a big nose. A huge nose that's much too big for my delicate face, with a bump on top and a profile that's wanting something different.

But, I wouldn't trade it for all the clouds in the sky because it's my familes' nose. It belongs to those that came before me and reminds me of my lineage and where I come from.

I think I'll keep my nose.




When I look in the mirror, I see me and when I see me... I see lots of freckles. Freckles covering my body head to toe. Contrasting dark brown with my light skin like a connect-the-dot game.

But, I wouldn't trade them for all the fish on the sea because they're a stamp from my childhood. A wonderful childhood spent outside in the lake, sun-kissed and barefoot. It reminds me how lucky I was to grow up wild and free.

I think I'll keep my freckles.





When I look in the mirror, I see me and when I see me... I see a birthmark as big as I've ever seen. Red as a cherry and right on my side. The doctor told my mama it was a bruise from delivery and it would go away. 33 years and still waiting...

But, I wouldn't trade it for all the flowers in the field because for some reason it never wanted to leave so how could I ask it to go? It makes me different.  It makes me unique. A kiss from the angels before they sent me on my way.

I think I will keep my birthmark.




When I look in the mirror, I see me and when I see me... I see a scar right across my tummy. 5 inches in length. My whole life... not there... and then one day it was.

But then so were you. It was my way of making sure you arrived safely. It was my last gift to you when I was your home. My goodbye. My welcome. My I-would-do-anything-for-you.  My I-can't-live-without-you. My constant reminder you're here, you're my daughter, you're perfect.

I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

I think I'll keep my scar.

For this is who I am. These things make me more beautiful because I have a story to tell. And it's mine, only mine.




6 comments:

  1. Beautiful. I cried as I was reading. Love this post <3

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    1. Thank you! I was reading your post about the sleep study... brings back bad memories for me! Glad yours went well! XOXO

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  2. Leslie, you are an amazingly gifted writer. Thank you for your beautiful posts! Grace

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    1. Thank you Grace! That means a lot coming from you! XOXO

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  3. Wow mama, loved reading this! I have a big nose, which I hate and a big birthmark on my tummy, which I am still not 100% comfortable with, but I don't think I could change them for anything. You really said it well and put everything into perspective, so thank you! :)

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    1. Thank you Nat! I really appreciate you reading our blog and supporting us! And... are you kidding?!? You are gorgeous! It's so funny what we see and what others see. I also see your inner beauty and your love for your daughter and family. So beautiful. XOXO

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